Rain's Declining Affection

As the rain kisses my face I stare off into space...
Thinking...

I've been done with life for 10 long years
From 12 to now my nights still fill with tears.
At least for now it's put to good use
Those sleep depleting nights, past induced.

The rain pounds harder, like when you first start kissing someone,
You don't take a single breath to exhale...

I've been done with love for 3 long years
It's a waste of time..... or so I fear.
From one to the next, they don't compare
Those sapphire eyes, that soft dark hair

Watching my breath swirling about in the rain..
Inhaling and exhaling...

I've been done with mirth, time and again.
A man with such apathy, only laughs to feign
My emotions alone, mean naught to me
But around others, I'm overwhelmed you see...

As the sunlight pours out into the rain
My thoughts subside... for now.